The Moment Everything Changes
It's been awhile since I've last posted, and a lot has happened. Where to start? I just came back from Japan which was very eventful and fun. I spent a lot of quality time with my in-laws and we traveled a lot. Unfortunately, I've had to come back to Toronto alone as Dog is still shooting a personal project in Tokyo until the 15th.
Five days ago, we found out some life-altering news. I'm pregnant! I am also feeling like hell - puking constantly, extremely emotional and all alone, trying to figure out how we're going to raise a baby in a two-bedroom apartment (where one bedroom is office/space for Dog's massive printer) and anxiously worrying that no nutrients are reaching the baby before I deposit them in the toilet. I'm going to ask my doctor about it at my appointment tomorrow. I've got millions of questions running rampant in my mind, and I can just barely type the words into the Google box before running on to the next one. I've got the attention span of a housefly, which my Mom says is normal. She came over and helped me yesterday, which was wonderful; I never would have been able to get those things done without her. Of course, she's a great comfort, and a huge source of support. Dog and I are both very excited at the prospect of a baby, and both petrified. He's going to be such a wonderful father. I have no idea how far along I am, as my first appointment is tomorrow, but it's certainly early! I miss him so much, and really wish he were here right now.
Nausea beckons, I'll have to post more details later!
Comments
First, your body makes the whole placenta first, that's why there's such a huge drain in the first months, even though the fetus is still just teeny.
You will feel like crap til this gets done.
They will tell you to eat healthy stuff, and give you lots of helpful nutritional info.
Well, that's fine and good, except if it won't stay down.
Find what you can eat, and at least get that.
(For me that meant almost no veggies, except at the magic 4-6pm time slot where things mostly stuck.).
Mexican was okay, and pasta, but not Chinese.
Get the prenatal vitamins - you need to get that folic acid - and find the time to take them when they will stay down.
Rest a lot.
Your body is telling you to, and the queeziness will be worse when you are tired.
It will get better in a few weeks.
Your mom is absolutely right about the attention span.
It will get better.
Mood swings too.
Don't worry about getting all the information straight now.
Your body knows what it is doing, and will do it whether your are through reading up or not.
This whole thing gives you a great respect for your body - it is an amazing process.
And don't worry too much about the apartment.
You have plenty of time.
Little babies don't care whether they have a nursery, or a crib, that stuff is for moms.
Babies just want mommy, and pretty much that is it for a long, long time.
The whole thing is much more fun, and much more amazing, than anyone tells you.
The sickness will pass (hopefully) ... and you will start to enjoy feeling pregnant. My eldest spent his first year in a one-bedroom flat - with 4 floors walk up! (stairs) It is amazing what you can manage! :-)